Recently, it appears I have new fan base. A steady flow of readers that want to know exactly what is going on with me, and where is all this controversy is coming from.
I’m never one to back down from a fight, but while I have everyone’s attention I thought there probably are a few things worth mentioning.
When the smoke clears, I’m not writing this to save myself. Rather to make peace where it can be made before that was to late.
It’s not about me.
This is to provide those who find it necessary the artillery needed to make peace without me. Put out fires so that when the smoke clears and the fight is over, no one had to burn the villiage to find the “thief” so to speak.
When the smoke clears I would like everyone at Hampton University to know that what I write is my view, through my lens. My thoughts and my opinions. Always.
We see things as we are not as they actually are. I never intended, nor do I intended now, to pass off my views as gospel to anyone, any school, or any organization.
I hope every one understands I’m not backing down from my previous statements, but adding to them when I say my intentions are never to expose or cause drama.
My intentions are to stir conversations about the truth. What that may be to me, is not necessarily truth to you.
When the smoke clears I’m very young and still learning. I hope to continue to learn at Hampton. But even if I’m not here, I’m still going to be learning. I’ve learned, ironically, more what I thought already knew.
That to whom much is given much is required.
I’ve learned that when you lead, even if you intend to lead only to serve, that there are things that you just can’t do. Responsibility that you just can not skate. Standards that can not be lowered or adjusted at your own will.
I don’t think I fully understood that. I still might not the way I need to. I like representing people. I like giving a voice to the voiceless. With great power comes great responsiblty. That is what I have learned.
This whole expirence has taught me more than any classes or any set of lessons that I have had over my three years.
When the smoke clears, I’ve spent the past two weeks telling a few pepole that it’s not all about them. It’s about those they serve around them. As head strong as I am, and I am, I will not be the one that says a lot of things and lives by none of them. I refuse to do that.
So…At the end of the day. I choose Hampton. I choose to stay for the three years I have been here. I choose to deal with all I dealt with and support all that I supported. It’s not about me, and when the smoke clears it won’t be about me.
It will be about the people who are standing with me when I’m still standing, or left standing when I’m gone. Those people deserved more than an angry tirade on a blog post.
Those people deserve more then to have there support of me defined by what I said, when what I have done or not done should be the issue.
When the smoke clears, while I disagree with everything she has done in my case, I’m sure the VP For Student Affairs thinks she is doing the right thing by her current students.
While I don’t agree with the system, I was the one in the office every Thursday, and recent alumni are quick to remind me that we only recently could do that. Those conversations would never be about me, I don’t know how anything was ever reframed as such.
When the smoke clears, after the dust settles and the controversy dies down, my only concern is for the people I have worked for and worked with.
Perhaps my comments where a little more aggressive than they ever needed to be. For that I’ll apolgize because what is worse than being the subject of an overreaction is responding in kind with an overreaction of your own. Justifying the orginal action in the first place. That is stupid.
When the smoke clears however, I am and will remain innocent. I’m sure that is not what had pepole reading, but whatever the reason you read (or are reading) please know that is the reason why I wrote (and am writing.)
Cause at the end of the day. When everyone’s opinion is heard. When the sub agendas are taken away. When the accusations stop flying and the blogs are no longer read. When the final judgement has been made…..You have left the lives of three innocent men…when the smoke clears……
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